s a w a k o

哎哟

2011-12-18T06:30:00.001-08:00

谭盾要去新加坡

没钱你叫我怎么办？

apparently so

2011-12-13T03:23:00.000-08:00

I am not a good girl.

求伯乐

2011-12-06T17:12:00.001-08:00

精湛到让你腿软的十分钟

哇。这个境界。。

求伯乐一同欣赏

不死精神再续

2011-12-03T06:26:00.001-08:00

作业我跟你拼了！

至爱

2011-11-27T20:45:00.001-08:00

如果能在有生之年看到 Priscilla Ahn 的 Concert

我就死而无憾了。。

你 Emo 个屁阿？

2011-11-24T06:03:00.001-08:00

常常觉得人是要穷过才懂得珍惜的。

你穷过吗？

有，还在穷。

那就好好珍惜。

真的该死

2011-11-24T05:29:00.001-08:00

麻烦，其实都是自找的。

现在有一点头晕，

我深呼吸。。

唉。。

I know u're reading :)

2011-11-05T06:42:00.000-07:00

Speaking of tomorrow, it's my 5th-months to be with fai fai.

I wouldn't forget how this lovely guy followed me to China in order to gain my heart

(luckily he did),

So touching and sweet it was.

Here I wanna say

Happy 5th month my love, xoxo.

Today i don't feel like doing anything

2011-11-05T06:39:00.000-07:00

It's a beautiful Saturday which I am supposed to fully utilize it to at least catch up a bit on my academic stuff.

you know Nottingham's education system is set to be so 'awesome' that there is no mid-term test or what to monitor your study progress.

all we have is the assignments' submission date and final exam all come together, like seriously TOGETHER at the end of the semester.

so whoever likes doing last-min work, i'm not exclusive, will be punished and died of burning mid-night oil.

the best part is that I repeat this bad habit over and over again, semester by semester,

despite I have already learnt how terrible would the consequences be.

*self-slapping, Piak!*

No doubt I spent whole day doing nthg again.

I myself is amazed by my excellent time-wasting skill,

really wish not to improve it anymore.

Ahhh screw it la.. Let it be, don't know why I just wish that this night will pass faster,

hoping for a better tomorrow perhaps?

我会后悔的

2011-11-05T01:44:00.000-07:00

为什么明明知道时间不够用了还是可以很潇洒地蹉跎岁月？

天啊。。

懊恼

2011-10-28T00:59:00.000-07:00

朋友或情侣，

两个人 click 不 click ？

说真的就是靠 “接受” 这两个字咯。

这世界什么样的人都有，

什么样的性格都有，

就看你接受不接受得到咯。

讲明一点，我接受不到咯。

I don't want

2011-10-23T07:56:00.000-07:00

Know when I dislike myself?

Not when I lose in Frisbee tourney,

Not when I receive bad result in exam,

Is when I start gaining dependency on the others.

Dreaming non-stop

2011-10-21T19:18:00.000-07:00

Ya, as what the titled said, I can rarely run away from dreaming when sleeping.

It has always been like this.

What's amazing is I remember my dream most of the time.

Probably because my brain function is too active already.

and I realize one thing,

I can hardly wake up from bed before my dream has actually come to an ending or conclusion.

Have you experienced this before? Agree?

我很穷

2011-10-20T09:21:00.000-07:00

每每有朋友生日总要花点钱，

说实在的我快不行了，

钱包见血啦！

记住，要是我生日请别为我花钱。。

Lang Tengah 2011

2011-10-16T00:14:00.000-07:00

Oh ya, one month ago I went to this beautiful place call Lang Tengah,

it's also where this movie below was shot at.

the trip was organised by one of my best friends who has been to the island for 6 times, crazy right?

It was a very pleasant trip.

see the photos we have taken,

shan shan and I

Samuel the fishing lover

beautiful evening

panda and I

before sunrise

blue sky

purple sky

nemo nemo!

super cute baby turtle

we kayak the island one round

we stay overnight at this place until sunrise

we snorkeling in the blue sea

Awesome right? I start missing this place

Ouh lang a lang tengah...

I'm a team leader again

2011-10-15T23:45:00.000-07:00

Ouh I know I haven't been updated since ages ago.

There were too many things that I wanted to share but I always type it out half way and save as draft.

I am not gonna let it happens again okay, at least I should write something about what happened yesterday.

It was one of my most important competitions/ tournaments in my life.

The last time I was elected a leader of a team of people was years ago, during my high school.

it was great that I get to know more people, and more people know me too.

when they heard of my name, they would say she is the president of Chinese orchestra, kinda proud actually.

but after two years I actually felt abit tired of the feeling of having responsibility and making sure everything is under control from time to time.

for example before every performance, I have to make sure that bus driver to fetch my members is contacted, lorry to deliver our music instruments is ready, members remember to bring their music stands, scores, uniforms so on..

probably because it was not easy, what I was dealing with was 200 over of Chinese orchestra members, but it was a good training tho, not many people have this opportunity.

after graduating from Jit Sin, I have never tried to get myself involved in any college or university election for society or club's committee team.

And yesterday was female frisbee tournamnet, I was senior enough to be appointed to be female team captain, hehe.

This has brought back my memories when I was in my orchestra, the feeling of being a leader.

it was relatively easy because the team is small, only 6 of them excluding me.

We have trained hard in the past two weeks, acted almost like a frisbee full-timer.

we play frisbee more than study, wake up early in the morning and train before and after classes.

Ended up quite good because I thk the team bonding was getting stronger and stronger,

every member was caring and concerning about each other, being supportive and most importantly very dedicated to the team.

Ouh imaging how touching am I, that's already my satisfied achievement, the result of the tourney doesn't really matter to me.

Turns out, we got 6th out of 10th. Not a good result tho ( my dad said so ).

I personally made a lot of stupid throws and mistake. Sorry to them.

But NVM! My girls and I had great time, good experience.

Btw I sprained by ankle for the 1st time after playing frisbee for two years, yesterday I can barely walk and panda has to carry me on his back,

luckily he is strong enough to carry me <3

It's over, time flies, now I'm at week 4, time to face study more serious, final year no kidding.

promise to try my best. :D

久违的失控

2011-09-27T07:39:00.000-07:00

那天我发疯失控时在 kinokuniya 买的就是这个包。

photo i like

2011-08-25T08:33:00.000-07:00

the panda

...

2011-08-11T06:38:00.000-07:00

Completely stunned.

Tell me what should I do please.

2011-07-22T05:59:00.000-07:00

Don't complain that life is tough.

If you hear me saying so,

slap me.

wait until my hairs turn white

2011-07-16T22:58:00.000-07:00

Aiya I miss panda la!

Love

2011-06-23T08:35:00.000-07:00

Again, it was so long since I last updated.

guess what, life is getting happier and happier.

there were some important incidents happened in the past few weeks,

like: I went to China- Hangzhou, Ningbo and SHANGHAI!

we won silver in the tricampus game and our team got the best spirit award, pheewiit..

we played in Shanghai Ultimate Open.

I went back penang for a few days before I start working at kl,

and most importantly I'm now somebody's girlfriend, well, somebody:

proudly introduce to you this adorable panda

yea, our relationship started when we were at China.

I always believe that no road is long with a good company,

he is my good company.

He walks into my life and has become part of my life.

I will do the same thing.

And anything that brings him that much of joys,

I would like to be part of it.

I'm so blessed.

xoxo

let it begin

2011-05-25T11:19:00.000-07:00

My second year in Nottingham is finally over.

I know I'm gonna miss library. =X

Many things are waiting for me ahead.

1. Tri-campus at Ningbo

2. Shanghai Ultimate Open 2011 - hopefully we can make it

3. Internship at Hong Leong

4. Monash hat 2011

5. Johor Ultimate Open

6. Lang Tengah trip

Sounds great eh? I know.

that's promise to myself last year to ensure this summer is gonna be excited.

pray that everything will go smoothly.

And I'm all good now, knowing what I want. =)

O.o

2011-05-17T10:04:00.001-07:00

things are getting messier and messier!

Yey!

2011-05-04T19:24:00.000-07:00

Here is a quick update:

Finally I got the job offer by Hong Leong Bank!

I will be in KL for the entire summer break after coming back from China.

Weee~

How lucky am I.

: D

2011-04-27T10:43:00.000-07:00

Good day, appreciate what makes me happy today.

I asked a 'powerful' question?

I hope I really did and that question reflected what I really mean to you.

and I'm not gonna forget the song again. =p

Intern Hunter's turn

2011-04-19T06:31:00.001-07:00

VERY THE EXCITED EH!

this is the first time I received phone call for Job Interview.

it was from Hong Leong bank.

Oh wait, not Job, I should say Intern.

Frankly I'm damn nervous and I feel lucky.

finger crossed, hope that everything is gonna be alright.

O.O !!!

the seed

2011-04-18T00:19:00.000-07:00

The seed has planted since months ago,

and now the tree is growing bigger and bigger.

I can barely control or stop it from growing..

Apparently I've never learnt the lesson

2011-04-11T10:55:00.000-07:00

Oh no I'm so tired!

As usual I'm again doing last-minute work.

I deserve dying, Shitttyyyy....!

it's such a mess

2011-04-08T01:41:00.000-07:00

I have hard feeling to know that my friend is not treating me like the way I treat him or her.

but isn't it a very normal thing?

I can't expect more seriously.

not easy to enjoy myself under this kinda messy situation.

Hmm, there are always too much to ponder.

too playful

2011-04-06T07:23:00.000-07:00

Hey bloggie,

I know that I have not been updating since weeks ago,

my apology for that.

Actually I was waiting for all the photos to be uploaded in facebook

so that I can let the pictures say the words!

Teehee!

Below are some precious and enjoyable moments I had with the beloved Oopsters..

Yea, imagine how much I love them,

we are like a big family <3

So, start with the Oopsters' Dinner at Shogun?

Similar to last year,

we had our own substitute annual dinner instead of attending the one held by Uni

(because it's too expensive la! and the foods served usually doesn't worth the price)

What we did was make our own dinner the same day and same location (sunway) with the uni's,

everyone dressed up like attending the real annual dinner,

and after we finished our unlimited rounds of swallowig the buffet's food,

we will go to the ballroom where the real annual dinner located and take pictures with the rest of the world.

pretty cool idea huh?

Have fun and good food at low price at the same time.

thank to my cousin who borrowed me the dress again so that I dont have to spend money.

Hehehe!!

Maple said I look feminine eh? thank you thank you..

I was trying to make the bow tie to be my ribbon hair ban XD

and here comes the 5S

And then...

there was a tourney at Nilai,

I was so lucky to have kang kang to be our cameraman,

who was so happy to experience his first ever sport event photo shooting.

Haha, glad that Oopsters like him and his photos

and after the event, his facebook friend list has actually added a lot of new people! =D

Photos below are completely credit to him.

* Cheers for kang kang *

"hip hip!! Hoorayyy!!"

My disc was in everyone's hand. :p

Oopsters ftw!

I realised that my hair looks Imba.

and most importantly, I get to see these two adorable ladies!
it's like back to jit sin man! lol

SO, what's next?

Notts Open is coming!

but wait, do not forget that assignments are due very very very soon and I am yet to started any of them.

great, I am abit too playful ady I know.

and so it's time to say goodbye. =p

TEEHEE!

FJ

2011-03-05T07:46:00.000-08:00

I feel pain,

But what for? I ask myself.

I know your replies are not gonna be as delightful as last time anymore

But I still took the initiative to start the conversation.

What for? I ask myself.

Enough for down grading my happiness.

So Stupid.

2011-03-04T23:14:00.000-08:00

It was so long since I last get myself involved in Indoor activities,

as you know my life is fully occupied by outdoor game like flying the disc.

And yey, I attended the concert in MPO yesterday night.

It was indeed a memorable and delightful night,

Imagine the orchestra played Star Wars, Harry Potter, Jaws, Superman, ET, Indiana Jones and so on..

and most importantly they played the song of Memoirs of Geisha!

I watched the movie for countless times, read the novel and bought the Original sound track album.

all the songs are already in my mind since years ago,

so now you know why am I so excited about it? Yaw!

Besides that, the conductor was very entertaining and had really good interaction with the audiences.

I still remember that he was so funny to ask us ' Did we scare you just now? you might want to change your mind if you plan to go to ocean during the weekend" after the song Jaws.

There was also a big screen above the stage displaying slide show of the movies.

Aww I would say that's very thoughtful and pretty cool,

it's like the Joe Hisaishi concert in Japan.

Okay friends dont be jeolous.

Get the tickets quick if you feel like watching the Chinese Chamber and Bugs Bunny show which I recommended earlier.

Don't forget that you can get student price at RM 15 if you present yourself at the counter to purchase the ticket.

Definitely worth it trust me ;)

Here comes the photos of the day....

Toodles!

Gun He Tao =)

2011-03-03T07:17:00.000-08:00

Guess what? I receive a call from Bro Oo just now,

he asked for my help to go to Kun Cheng to be Gun He Tao's tutor.

that's amazing, I seriously doubt if I still can play.

he might be overestimated my skill but doesn't matter,

I will try my best. He said thing will go even worse without me helping.

Cooool, it was so long time since I last come across Chinese Orchestra,

I will treasure this opportunity I promise.

Hehe

ya I'm a weirdo

2011-02-25T02:27:00.000-08:00

I realize myself have been a bit over emotional recently,

sometimes I don't really know what makes me feel that way,

But most of the time, I notice that I always have issues with myself,

as in, I hate myself..

When I hate myself I feel frustrated easily and I can't get my job done well at all.

Sometimes I realize myself has changed and I wish to go back to be like the Sawako in the past.

for example, nowadays I feel people annoyed easily; I couldn't tolerant their mistakes or weird behavior. Hmm. =X

or very minor and silly things like: I've no longer own the patience to listen to classic songs which used to be my all-time favourite last time.

Hmm, maybe that indicates that I'm becoming hot-tempered. Oh no!

Uh, see? how weird am I?

and just recent, I discover the fact is that I'm affected by things happened around me easily, too much.

let say friend emo, then I will emo. or when my friend is in trouble, I feel myself is in trouble also.

now I seriously think that I'm born to be kepo one.

Many irrelevant things somehow appear to become my concerns.

I'm not superwoman, inevitably, I feel depressed when I fail to achieve what I want.

I like this self-realization. Apparently things cannot be continued in this way.

but Oh well, that's just me la, pretty much a sawako..

I need to balance between two extremes.

Life will be better soon.

I will first love myself more. <3

May you rest in peace my puppy

2011-02-23T23:36:00.000-08:00

Two days ago when I was playing frisbee at Uni,

I accidentally found a black ill puppy stuck under the drain.

Didn't know how long it has been suffering there,

I took it back home and see what i can do to save its life.

the puppy's health condition was utterly terrible.

it's too weak and pale and super skinny, it can barely stand up

the worse is that it refused to eat when we tried to feed it even though it has been starving for a very long time.

how can I leave it alone?

fortunately there are alot of kind people offering me help, like

Ren Yi who sent me to check if the vet is open at night at the first day;

Carol who supplied me syringe and puppy milk powder (even though it can't take it at all);

Kam Hing who delivered me the glucoline;

Yen Wynn who drive us to see a vet in semenyih town the next day;

and most importantly my housemate who was so patient and take turn taking care of this little poor creature with me.

after visiting the vet I was hoping that it will recover soon as that's what he told me.

I continue feeding glucoline and same shit happened,

all the liquid just flowed out from its mouth, it never swallow at all.

it vomited and had diarrhea.

by then, we already have mental preparation for the coming of its death.

at the night before it stopped breathing, we witnessed the process it suffered from pain.

it make sounds for hours while my house mate and I accompanied it aside,

imagine how bad we felt.

the female dog next door came closer to fence, stared at the puppy and cried too,

it bit the fence and was like wanted to come over and help.

How sad. We cant let it do so because it's having severe skin problem.

At that moment, I just wished that it could die as soon as possible hoping that the suffering can end immediately.

eventually it passed away in the midnight.

Oh, dear puppy. I'm sorry that I can't help much.

I cried badly when I saw my housemate's fb status saying that:

"‎ :'(... just leave... don't take the suffering anymore.. I pictured how cute you can be when you grow up, but it's ok....."

I believe that it's fate that makes me discovered you and I'm arranged by the god to rescue you.

I'm sorry.. May you rest in peace..

You'll be in my heart

I'm Busy!

2011-02-21T00:14:00.000-08:00

Hey people, here comes some quick updates.

I'm now in third week again *omg time flies no kidding man*

my first two weeks was seriously fully scheduled with a series of happening activities.

Oh well, I do not mean that they are all academic related one.

Apparently it's FUN>studies. Let's see what are them?

1) lotsa Monopoly deal and board game session with abang-abang and house mates.

2) movie session at midvalley

3) two frisbee matches (UKM and muddy league) and pick up session in ISKL and uni

4) sending beloved senior- Alvin off to Aussie

5) very the bersemangat, I went to klcc and bought three MPO concert tickets sekali gus.

a) http://www.mpo.com.my/Upcoming-Performances/Following-Concerts/A-Tribute-to-John-Williams.aspx?docid=1671&perfname=A%20Tribute%20to%20John%20Williams

b) http://www.mpo.com.my/Upcoming-Performances/Following-Concerts/Chinese-Charmers-(1).aspx?docid=1678&perfname=Chinese%20Charmers

c) http://www.mpo.com.my/Upcoming-Performances/Following-Concerts/Bugs-Bunny-at-the-Symphony-(1).aspx?docid=1690&perfname=Bugs%20Bunny%20at%20the%20Symphony

Aww~ Can you imagine how excited am I? I've already aiming for these concerts since last year.

So thankful that now I found kaki who shared the same interest as me.

and just recent only I find out that we are allowed to purchase the 55bucks ticket @ student price, which is 15 bucks! =D freaking happy I feel.

So yea, I know how busy will be my coming weekends, it's gonna be flooded with endless frisbee games and concerts.

Btw, Shan is back to Malaysia! she has been staying at my place for the past whole week.

We had fun doing pillow-talk every night, still sounds like lesbian I know. Hehe!

As for the one who I care a lot,

I'm glad that all the misunderstandings have been solved and everything is back to normal.

I'm good, and I will treasure this friendship =)

Oh ya, never forget about my studies.

I've been struggling so long and finally decided to kamikaze to choose a tough module as my optional which would definitely benefit me a lot.

everything is under-control, I had awesome teammates and we are gonna rock it with no fear! yey!

other than that, i'm in the process of applying internship. God bless me.

So yea, that's basically what I've been doing all these days..

and I realize I start missing home ady! =/

Ouh... one hour later and im gonna off to the field for frisbee again!

time to say goodbye

xoxo

潮落之后就有潮起

2011-02-11T02:13:00.000-08:00

.Everything will be fine.

.I've missed out a lot of things and now I'm gonna get them back.

What a Mess

2011-02-09T05:31:00.000-08:00

And now I really realize something important.

I wish I really can take this lesson serious and do not repeat it again.

I've received my result today and it was really as bad as what i've expected.

I was pretty optimistic and hoping for miracle to appear,

and yea, eventually it didn't.

I did some self-evaluation, keep pondering where's my problem.

Yea, It was totally my own fault.

Actually what for right? I really hate myself.

I am such a nuisance seriously.

And I have to accept the fact that I was investing in a wrong person AGAIN.

yea, "again"

I don't know how many times does it have to repeat over and over again.

Me, Sawako is feeling hopeless.

So what's the conclusion? I got very a bad grade and I'm abandoned.

I can't ignore the hurt that makes me burn.

SHIT, I'm so childish. Grow up Please.

If the quote 'no pain no gain' still holds,

Ahhhhhh! I tell myself pls pls pls... don't be so silly anymore.

The world is cruel and all you need to do is to be stronger and be more independent.

Sigh!

2011-02-08T05:55:00.000-08:00

Gone case ady I know.

Goodbye =(

update

2011-02-08T04:24:00.000-08:00

Finally back to uni,

and have been kinda busy these two days.

Attended first and second lecturers and I know my life is gonna be very tough after this.

AHHHH! beh hoh sheh liao

result is releasing tomorrow,

take a deep breath

*inhale.. exhale..*

I know im gonna die but god bless pls bu yao si dao tai nan kan =/

one more thing is that I'm having a frisbee match on this coming weekend at UKM,

will be playing with Take one team,

it's gonna be fun! pray that we will win the game!

Btw, I had awesome gathering with my girls last week.

photos are yet to be uploaded and I'm gonna give some pressure to ah geng.

speaking of ah geng,

my last Sunday was so delightful to have her driving me to Ikea.

It was also my first meeting with her bf, Jonathan.

Awww, very the sweet the lovely couple.

Ah bao said I'm the representative of pom chick pom pom to see her bf,

and I will give him a 'pass go' card. =p

And as for me,

I just randomly snapped a photo of myself.

I thk it was ages ago since I last practicing cam-whore,

I hope it doesn't look that bad even though ppl claimed that this is so not me.

*people do change ma* =)

p/s: forgive me that this post is so not well-structured. =p

Rabbit Year

2011-02-02T08:03:00.000-08:00

Chinese new year?

To be honest I like the opportunity of having gathering with relatives and friends

but I memang dislike the festival itself =/ sry im a weirdo.

And this year I started to understand what's the reason behind. Hmm..

Beside that, realizing I'm now at the age of 21th, maybe it's time to learn how to dress up like a lady and start wearing high heel? Hmmmmm..

Anyway, there are still lotsa people who I yet to meet but I'm very lazy to move my ass. Uhh..

Pls come and visit me people, if you are not as lazy as me. =D

last but not least. Wish you Human happy rabbit year.

*do not release fireworks if possible, protect our mother earth*

*but it's ping ping piang piang outside right now, =( very bad la*

-down-

2011-02-01T08:38:00.000-08:00

"Oh! someday I know someone will look into my eyes
and say 'hello'
you are my very special one
but if you close the door
I'll never have to see the day again"

yea that's exactly how I feel,
Not happy because I feel like being abandoned.
not the first time tho.

accept the fact and start all over again.

miss

2011-01-24T04:31:00.001-08:00

Ouhhh. I miss you!

I know I will regret later! but...

2011-01-16T05:49:00.000-08:00

-____________________-

Imba LONG face I have now.

walao ehhh... I cant take it anymore la..

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! enough for studying laaa...

silly one

2011-01-12T08:17:00.000-08:00

When I opened the exam papers,

what first raised my concern was your ability to answer the question instead of mine.

see if questions come out are what you've prepared for.

How stupid am I.

No, I regret nothing

2011-01-10T01:42:00.000-08:00

This is what I recommend you to listen to when you're stress.

Terpaling classic.

totally thumbs up

daughter's tear

2011-01-10T01:00:00.000-08:00

I feel so warm especially when mom called

(oops, let me clarify, that doesn't mean that I don't warm when dad called, Lol!)

She said that she prayed for me in the morning so that I can complete my exam smoothly.

And then, I gave her a call after the first paper, told her that I did okay, not as bad as I expected.

guess what she replied then?

'当然啦，妈妈跪下去磕头帮你求佛的咧。。讲我是没有本事。。。。。。 '

I interrupted her before she finish her sentence.

because tears start dropping already.

yea I feel very touching..

the motive pushes me forward,

dont stop, keep going,

must not disappoint them.

jia youuuuuuu..

不爽

2011-01-08T05:48:00.000-08:00

我看你不顺眼 MD

study =C

2011-01-03T07:25:00.000-08:00

='( I'm slow like a snail

Macroeconomics seem so easy to everybody But it took me so long to digest them

I spend time think deeply into every single concept (thinking too much most of the time)

that's why I'm still in chapter one now, 5 more chapters to go.

and guess what, this is my forth time reading this chapter already.

I kept discover new things when I revise them again and again.

that makes me so worried, izzit I have to do the same thing to the rest of the chapters?

No way.. time is running out liao weyy!

the problem is not that I din pay attention in class or I don't like Macro..

But why am I so slowwwww ?!! ='(

I'm thankful

2010-12-30T07:24:00.000-08:00

I think I myself is blessed to have many angels surrounded me.

Friends and families are care about me.

let me to be yours angel too,

yes i'm really thankful. =)

talking to myself again

2010-12-28T00:22:00.000-08:00

Hey Yey!

Move your ass abit faster!

Accept the fact is that you are way too slowwww...

Be precise on what you want and what you wish to achieve..

Stay imba close like glue to Determination!

Roar~~~~

Allow me to do that.

2010-12-22T05:04:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I just cant help,

I need somewhere to express my emoness.

Sigh, everything was so great until few mins ago,

my heart's broken =[

So what am I to do?

it's for YOU

2010-12-14T19:09:00.000-08:00

Clearly, your support is significant.

Life is good with your existence.

=]

The Boobs Song

2010-12-13T20:51:00.000-08:00

The Boobs Song- Priscilla Ahn

I came back from a late night

with my friends you were out of town.

So I took off my shoes and I took off my coat

and I took a look around.

Looked at all the book shelves

just like I like to do.

And I saw a little note

some other girl wrote to you.

It said "Baby, baby would you read a poem I picked for you?

I know you're sensitive but would you think about my boobs?"

Now what am I to do,

when I feel so much love for you?

I wish that I could be stronger

but I get scared that my love will not do.

Now I do not want to be that girl

that cries at every turn.
But I can't ignore the hurt
that makes me burn.

So please do be patient with me,
I know I can have a bit of jealousy.
But I promise you, I'll make it up to you in return.

So baby, baby would you read a poem I wrote for you?
Would you think of me and not some other girls boobs?

Now what am I to do, when I feel so much love for you?
I wish that I could be stronger but I get scared
that my love will not do.
Yeah, I get scared that my love will not do.

what a funny and sad song!

This is a true story and has actually happened on her.

She wrote this song at that night after she has seen the little note. Lol..

She is simply amazing.

Another good share

2010-12-10T22:41:00.000-08:00

Priscilla Ahn,

an awesome American singer-songwriter.

I'm in love with her.

What makes me come across this beautiful voice?

just recalled that this have to thank to Song Keat,

who was so thoughtful to share with me the song "Lullaby" when I told him that I could barely fall asleep.

Now you might wonder how good can this pretty lady sing?

So take a look at this, not a very good recording but..

take my word, you would definitely fall for her.

enjoy! =3

I've downloaded her songs. from here

strongly recommend- Dream, I Don't Think So, Leave the Light On.

beautiful morning

2010-12-10T20:02:00.000-08:00

discovered this thingy in the morning

have spent some time playing

yay quite cool

just fill in your favourite colour and they will search for you the pictures

according to what you have selected.

try and see!

* life is colourful * =)

dream

2010-12-08T23:35:00.000-08:00

People who knows me well should have heard about my imba-ness of dreaming.

yea, I dream a lot at night, sleep-talking is also my expertise and perhaps no one can fight.

I have been working very hard in the past few days for my MPA assignment (last-min champion as usual) and slept very few hours.

So, after I switches of my room's light yesterday night,

I know that I'm not going to wake up until my all of dream has come to the last episode ady.

Guess what, it was really funny.

first, I dreamed of playing percussion under Little Giant's orchestra. Haha, conducted by Chen Chih Sheng. *FWAH* how excited!

second, I dreamed of receiving call from my faculty's office. saying that Friday would be a holiday, So my next two assignment submission date will be changed to next Monday. *FWAH again!*

these are just part of my dreams.. I mean, the real dreams that I dreamed of yesterday night.

Lol, cant really remember the rest of it..

but after waking up,

I realized that..

1. I have been sleeping for more than 12 hours,

2.skipped one class,

3. and all the dreams are just dreamss.. Duh! but quite a wonderful dream though =j

So yea. Say What?? time to back to work...

two assignments ahh... see how am I going to create miracle! *fighting*

Long Name is cool

2010-12-07T00:31:00.000-08:00

Do you have any friend whose name is imba long one?

I do. Wait, I dont really know him but I know he is my school rep.

His name- Louis Olivier Pascal Lee Shih Leh Sam-Soon.

Oh my..O.o this is amazing.

*8 words lea Abang!*

but dont worry, everyone calls him Pascal.

wonder if anyone got longer than this?

疑惑！

2010-12-05T14:30:00.000-08:00

嗯。。我有个问题

为什么在那些爱情片里的女生，手指被东西割到流血时，

男生总是会奋不顾生的把对方流血的指头放进嘴里衔哩？

有比较好咩？

戏都是这样演的。。

给我肯定疯掉。

Good thing must share.

2010-12-04T04:37:00.000-08:00

Written by Adrian Tan, author of The Teenage Textbook (1988), was the guest-of-honour at a recent NTU convocation ceremony. This was his speech to the graduating class of 2008.

-----

I must say thank you to the faculty and staff of the Wee Kim Wee School of Communication and Information for inviting me to give your convocation address. It’s a wonderful honour and a privilege for me to speak here for ten minutes without fear of contradiction, defamation or retaliation. I say this as a Singaporean and more so as a husband.

My wife is a wonderful person and perfect in every way except one. She is the editor of a magazine. She corrects people for a living. She has honed her expert skills over a quarter of a century, mostly by practising at home during conversations between her and me.

On the other hand, I am a litigator. Essentially, I spend my day telling people how wrong they are. I make my living being disagreeable.

Nevertheless, there is perfect harmony in our matrimonial home. That is because when an editor and a litigator have an argument, the one who triumphs is always the wife.

And so I want to start by giving one piece of advice to the men: when you’ve already won her heart, you don’t need to win every argument.

Marriage is considered one milestone of life. Some of you may already be married. Some of you may never be married. Some of you will be married. Some of you will enjoy the experience so much, you will be married many, many times. Good for you.

The next big milestone in your life is today: your graduation. The end of education. You’re done learning.

You’ve probably been told the big lie that “Learning is a lifelong process” and that therefore you will continue studying and taking masters’ degrees and doctorates and professorships and so on. You know the sort of people who tell you that? Teachers. Don’t you think there is some measure of conflict of interest? They are in the business of learning, after all. Where would they be without you? They need you to be repeat customers.

The good news is that they’re wrong.

The bad news is that you don’t need further education because your entire life is over. It is gone. That may come as a shock to some of you. You’re in your teens or early twenties. People may tell you that you will live to be 70, 80, 90 years old. That is your life expectancy.

I love that term: life expectancy. We all understand the term to mean the average life span of a group of people. But I’m here to talk about a bigger idea, which is what you expect from your life.

You may be very happy to know that Singapore is currently ranked as the country with the third highest life expectancy. We are behind Andorra and Japan, and tied with San Marino. It seems quite clear why people in those countries, and ours, live so long. We share one thing in common: our football teams are all hopeless. There’s very little danger of any of our citizens having their pulses raised by watching us play in the World Cup. Spectators are more likely to be lulled into a gentle and restful nap.

Singaporeans have a life expectancy of 81.8 years. Singapore men live to an average of 79.21 years, while Singapore women live more than five years longer, probably to take into account the additional time they need to spend in the bathroom.

So here you are, in your twenties, thinking that you’ll have another 40 years to go. Four decades in which to live long and prosper.

Bad news. Read the papers. There are people dropping dead when they’re 50, 40, 30 years old. Or quite possibly just after finishing their convocation. They would be very disappointed that they didn’t meet their life expectancy.

I’m here to tell you this. Forget about your life expectancy.

After all, it’s calculated based on an average. And you never, ever want to expect being average.

Revisit those expectations. You might be looking forward to working, falling in love, marrying, raising a family. You are told that, as graduates, you should expect to find a job paying so much, where your hours are so much, where your responsibilities are so much.

That is what is expected of you. And if you live up to it, it will be an awful waste.

If you expect that, you will be limiting yourself. You will be living your life according to boundaries set by average people. I have nothing against average people. But no one should aspire to be them. And you don’t need years of education by the best minds in Singapore to prepare you to be average.

What you should prepare for is mess. Life’s a mess. You are not entitled to expect anything from it. Life is not fair. Everything does not balance out in the end. Life happens, and you have no control over it. Good and bad things happen to you day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment. Your degree is a poor armour against fate.

Don’t expect anything. Erase all life expectancies. Just live. Your life is over as of today. At this point in time, you have grown as tall as you will ever be, you are physically the fittest you will ever be in your entire life and you are probably looking the best that you will ever look. This is as good as it gets. It is all downhill from here. Or up. No one knows.

What does this mean for you? It is good that your life is over.

Since your life is over, you are free. Let me tell you the many wonderful things that you can do when you are free.

The most important is this: do not work.

Work is anything that you are compelled to do. By its very nature, it is undesirable.

Work kills. The Japanese have a term “Karoshi”, which means death from overwork. That’s the most dramatic form of how work can kill. But it can also kill you in more subtle ways. If you work, then day by day, bit by bit, your soul is chipped away, disintegrating until there’s nothing left. A rock has been ground into sand and dust.

There’s a common misconception that work is necessary. You will meet people working at miserable jobs. They tell you they are “making a living”. No, they’re not. They’re dying, frittering away their fast-extinguishing lives doing things which are, at best, meaningless and, at worst, harmful.

People will tell you that work ennobles you, that work lends you a certain dignity. Work makes you free. The slogan “Arbeit macht frei” was placed at the entrances to a number of Nazi concentration camps. Utter nonsense.

Do not waste the vast majority of your life doing something you hate so that you can spend the small remainder sliver of your life in modest comfort. You may never reach that end anyway.

Resist the temptation to get a job. Instead, play. Find something you enjoy doing. Do it. Over and over again. You will become good at it for two reasons: you like it, and you do it often. Soon, that will have value in itself.

I like arguing, and I love language. So, I became a litigator. I enjoy it and I would do it for free. If I didn’t do that, I would’ve been in some other type of work that still involved writing fiction – probably a sports journalist.

So what should you do? You will find your own niche. I don’t imagine you will need to look very hard. By this time in your life, you will have a very good idea of what you will want to do. In fact, I’ll go further and say the ideal situation would be that you will not be able to stop yourself pursuing your passions. By this time you should know what your obsessions are. If you enjoy showing off your knowledge and feeling superior, you might become a teacher.

Find that pursuit that will energise you, consume you, become an obsession. Each day, you must rise with a restless enthusiasm. If you don’t, you are working.

Most of you will end up in activities which involve communication. To those of you I have a second message: be wary of the truth. I’m not asking you to speak it, or write it, for there are times when it is dangerous or impossible to do those things. The truth has a great capacity to offend and injure, and you will find that the closer you are to someone, the more care you must take to disguise or even conceal the truth. Often, there is great virtue in being evasive, or equivocating. There is also great skill. Any child can blurt out the truth, without thought to the consequences. It takes great maturity to appreciate the value of silence.

In order to be wary of the truth, you must first know it. That requires great frankness to yourself. Never fool the person in the mirror.

I have told you that your life is over, that you should not work, and that you should avoid telling the truth. I now say this to you: be hated.

It’s not as easy as it sounds. Do you know anyone who hates you? Yet every great figure who has contributed to the human race has been hated, not just by one person, but often by a great many. That hatred is so strong it has caused those great figures to be shunned, abused, murdered and in one famous instance, nailed to a cross.

One does not have to be evil to be hated. In fact, it’s often the case that one is hated precisely because one is trying to do right by one’s own convictions. It is far too easy to be liked, one merely has to be accommodating and hold no strong convictions. Then one will gravitate towards the centre and settle into the average. That cannot be your role. There are a great many bad people in the world, and if you are not offending them, you must be bad yourself. Popularity is a sure sign that you are doing something wrong.

The other side of the coin is this: fall in love.

I didn’t say “be loved”. That requires too much compromise. If one changes one’s looks, personality and values, one can be loved by anyone.

Rather, I exhort you to love another human being. It may seem odd for me to tell you this. You may expect it to happen naturally, without deliberation. That is false. Modern society is anti-love. We’ve taken a microscope to everyone to bring out their flaws and shortcomings. It far easier to find a reason not to love someone, than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason. Love requires complete acceptance. It is hard work – the only kind of work that I find palatable.

Loving someone has great benefits. There is admiration, learning, attraction and something which, for the want of a better word, we call happiness. In loving someone, we become inspired to better ourselves in every way. We learn the truth worthlessness of material things. We celebrate being human. Loving is good for the soul.

Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also important to choose the right person. Despite popular culture, love doesn’t happen by chance, at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows slowly, sinking roots first before branching and blossoming. It is not a silly weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm.

You will find, that when you have someone to love, that the face is less important than the brain, and the body is less important than the heart.

You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love is not reciprocated. You are not doing it to be loved back. Its value is to inspire you.

Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it comes to loving someone. You either don’t, or you do with every cell in your body, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology. It consumes you, and you are reborn, all the better for it.

Don’t work. Avoid telling the truth. Be hated. Love someone.

______________________________________________________________

Spotted this article in my friend's blog.

I personally LIKE it a lot and thus decided to share it.

I know it's long, but trust me, it benefits you. =)

Birthday

2010-11-30T06:04:00.000-08:00

Hrm, tomorrow is my Birthday.

Finally December is here,

December is my favourite month because my birthday fall at the first day,

and that means Xmas is around the corner as well. =)

Housemate just reminded me that my age is gonna start with the number TWO> fwah 20 years old!

Oh man, that sounds cool and it indicates what? .... what??

Can't really think of anything right now, tell me If you know it. =p

Oh well, to be honest, why am I posting this blog?

perhaps, I just cant wait to make SOME wishes..

you know, we don't really have much chance to make a wish..

unless you are so lucky? accidentally see a shooting star in the night sky?

Less likely will happen on me lo.

So ya man! Dont waste the chance man...!

* keep my head down and start wishing....*

....

AHa! done wishing.. Happy Birthday to myself! Heee~ =D

2010-11-28T05:47:00.000-08:00

Live as if you were to die tomorrow, learn as if you were to live forever.

-Mahatma Gandhi

Discovered this meaningful sentence from one of my seniors'(weiyun) blog today.

bear in mind Tan Chek Hang! enough for wasting time.

just a thought.

2010-11-28T03:19:00.000-08:00

有的时候人是因为互相认识而远离彼此

听起来是有一点可悲

但总比迟迟看不清对方盲目的走下去好

真的快崩溃了

2010-11-23T06:41:00.000-08:00

Have you noticed that there is a stupid rabbit killer video kept circulating in facebook recently?

When I see the title of the video I know it's gonna be something crazy and I tell myself to not to look at it because it will definitely ruin my mood.

And just now, damn it due to curiosity, I decided to read the articles regarding this video, and I'm so happened to glance through some of the pictures of the process..

WALAO EHHHH!! CAN GO DIE LO ALL OF YOU THESE INSANE HUMAN!

Now I understand why did my brother so mad on this video at the first place.

seriously Ta Ma De and they are so unforgivable!

that's why I dont eat meat now!

Little Giant? O.o!

2010-11-21T09:23:00.000-08:00

I have been quite active in youtubing recently.

I cant stop listening to those good Chinese or Symphony Orchestra music..

not to mention my favourite Little Giant Chamber Chinese Orchestra also.

the conductor Chen Chih Sheng just chatted with me in msn just now,

fwah Mr. conductor you made my day seriously.

Here is the link of their coming concert.

http://www.littlegiant.idv.tw/info/pro20101220.htm

Ya, in taiwan la.. how good if I can attend it.. =[

I miss JSCO badly.

Ehem.

2010-11-18T07:14:00.001-08:00

I am so wanted to know more about YOU!

so good to be home!

2010-11-13T19:17:00.000-08:00

=D it's super awesome to spend time with my family.

Papa Mama are still that funny,

as usual, mom kept complaining that I'm too boyish..

Bro is still that hardworking in learning Japanese,

Sis is getting prettier but too bad, bu guai.

Mao Mao is still so in love with my brother and she is freaking cute!!

but too bad I dont have ah bao visit me anymore this time. =/

the journey wasn't that lonely and bored this time.

I met a Nottingham new friend from Butterworth when I was on my way to bm,

and met Khai Sheng on ktm when I'm in the ktm train to kajang,

what a coincident right?! Baha!

lastly, thank to Carson Heng who woke up early in the morning and send me back to Semenyih.

*bowww*

Dont droppppp!

2010-11-10T05:45:00.000-08:00

Grab the disc Grab the disc!!!

Dont let it drop!!

I have been quite sucky recently.

Uh!!!

not out of sudden

2010-11-06T09:35:00.001-07:00

And I say Love needs effort.

Hachi

2010-11-06T08:25:00.000-07:00

I've just finished watching this movie.

strongly recommend to dog lovers.

As expected I cried badly,

especially at the ending part.

Ggrrrr.. Now I miss MAO MAO!!

以后？

2010-11-06T00:09:00.000-07:00

最近花很多时间在想以后的事，以后的事太多未知数了，

比方说明年的暑假我该干嘛呢？原本决定好要去美国

后来又考虑要去中国参加大学的三校运动会，是全免的哦，

飞的啦，吃的啦，住的啦，玩的啦全部大学都会负责，

那么好？当然位子有限，要被选上是个问题，你要够强，

这就是为什么我那么拼命练习飞盘，

那拼命的程度有可能比中学练鼓还厉害。。

但比我好的人还是很多，我只好尽力，真的不行也就不后悔了。

再来是 Internship，我毕业以后是想到新加坡去‘找吃’的，

所以明年的暑假如果能去新加坡公司实习绝对是关键。

那么好？当然你的成绩要够好人家才要请你，

再加上我这一行（金融）多的是人才，在狮城又是很热门的，

但我却是菜鸟一只，成绩普通，很难会有人欣赏我。

不管怎样，我只好试一试，你说对吗？

再来是美国, 我想去的地方很美，有多美？请看。。

http://www.google.com.my/images?q=grand%20teton%20national%20park&um=1&ie=UTF-8&source=og&sa=N&hl=en&tab=wi&biw=1280&bih=685

对，那是国家公园，那么爱大自然和动物的我去那里绝对发疯，

那很肯定会是个一生人中最难忘的回忆。。

到哪里打工，赚的是美金，花的也是美金，会遇见的应该都是志同道和的人，

可以一起去游山玩水三四个月，你说爽不爽。可能半路还会被野牛追，绝对刺激。。

那么好？当然，你得花钱。。整个旅途费用是10 千马币左右，还没算生活费，

你可以赚，赚得会多少真的没人能保证你。。要看老天爷疼不疼你？

我见过幸运的能带三千多美金回来，不幸运的亏到脱裤。

你知道我有经济问题，我不能为了自己开心，放肆的去，放肆的花，不行。。

暑假也只不过四个月，我想做的事那么那么多！

我的上个暑假可以说是浪费了，不够精彩，

但是没关系，我只要确保接下来的够亢奋。

你教我怎么选？这次刚刚好，三个选择，古人说要三思。

Oh my..!

2010-11-03T11:18:00.000-07:00

Fwah! today my house got snake when i was home alone

Damn scary lo it was at the kitchen, quite close to my room.

luckily not a big one.. and I called my abang-abang come over and help.

it escaped from the back door eventually, not very sure though,

because we weren't manage to find it in the house after that.

Fwah my fren advise me to wear spec if I want to go to the toilet at night,

dont step on the snake accidentally. Oh man! no way!

Btw I thk I should buy toto today? perhaps..

and seriously xiao liao.. my house is dangerous..

富士山下

2010-10-31T08:35:00.000-07:00

Accidentally found this photo in my camera.

I miss this place so much and I really wish to go back one day..

Ah Japan!

Aha!

2010-10-30T06:25:00.000-07:00

I cant hide my excitement,

just talked to my dad,

I think the chance of going to work and travel is *high*

Hey I'm getting excited! Haha..

Btw I really wish to know what happen to me recently

I am acting abnormally because I eat a lot! (twice of the portion I usually have)

I am craving for chocolate and ice cream which I normally dont bother eating them at all,

Ah Bao should know this happen before, once in a while,

But Why a? I'm not pregnant! 发育 again?

Not a good sign though, I'm gonna gain weight kao kao.. =/

Saturday @ Lake garden

2010-10-30T01:14:00.000-07:00

Ehey people, guess what?

I was invited by Uni friends to go to a jungle trekking @ Ah Pak San in Cheras,

Unfortunately tak jadi at the end due to imba heavy rain early in the morning,

not to mention that it started to rain before we depart from TTS. Lol..

So we decided to change our destination to Lake Garden (Taman Tasik Perdana),

was wishing to ride the pedal boat there,

But we were so sway.. the thingy is under renovation. =/

So... nthg much we can do ady

we just walk around, play some games and take pictures,

but the place the quite nice though.. kind of romantic! <3

Here comes the photos...

Sorry my face is abit cacat..

I see this as the picture of the day *wink*

Girls look at here!

Some funny dudes..

Pokok yang sangat cantik!

My buddies Sing Hong and De Winn..

And lastly Wen Shan, Monkey, Superman and I!

the end...

work and travel?

2010-10-29T09:32:00.000-07:00

I'm considering about joining the Work and Travel USA programme next year.

Hopefully I would be able to take loan from Siew Lee foundation,

and get my dad's permission.

Yellow Stone National Park is where I want to go!

Good luck to me, and do you want to go with me? =D

=l

2010-10-25T09:16:00.000-07:00

Too bad, I'm not in the study mood tonight.

I admit that I'm bothered.

There are too much to ponder tonight,

I am lost and now finding the right path.

great to have good friend guiding me (thanks Song Keat)

Haih, tired of thinking..

Why am I not doing the right thing at the right timing? Memang Duh!

Just random

2010-10-21T18:53:00.000-07:00

Hi world, what a wonderful morning.

I'm awake early today without any alarm

currently having breakfast while listening to Summer from Joe Hisaishi.

It's Friday so I don't have classes to attend

thinking how should I spend this lovely Friday wisely..

things to be done today included house cleaning, revising, disc tossing.

Btw, I've come across this meaning short article in my mail box, sent by Anson and I feel like sharing it here.

(not sure where am I supposed to quote it from though)

Please read...

A little boy went to a telephone booth which was at the cash counter of a store and dialed a number.

The store-owner observed and listened to the conversation:

Boy : "Lady, Can you give me the job of cutting your lawn?

Woman : (at the other end of the phone line) "I already have someone to cut my lawn."

Boy : "Lady, I will cut your lawn for half the price than the person who cuts your lawn now."

Woman : I'm very satisfied with the person who is presently cutting my lawn.

Boy : (with more perseverance) "Lady, I'll even sweep the floor and the stairs of your house for free.

Woman : No, thank you. With a smile on his face, the little boy replaced the receiver.

The store-owner, who was listening to all this, walked over to the boy.

Store Owner : "Son... I like your attitude; I like that positive spirit and would like to offer you a job."

Boy : "No thanks,

Store Owner : But you were really pleading for one.

Boy : No Sir, I was just checking my performance at the job I already have. I am the one who is working for that lady I was talking to!"

This is called "Self Appraisal"

The difference between dream and aim:

Dream requires soundless sleep to see;

Aim requires sleepless efforts to achieve

"to handle youself, use your Brain;
to handle others, use your Heart"